I won’t give up

 10/2/24

Sometimes life sucks dad,

What do I do when I don’t know what I did?

What do I do when I don’t know how to fix my mistake?

 

Sometimes I feel pathetic,

Like I am not a man.

Like I will never measure up to what everyone else wants me to be.

 

Rest eludes me,

Solitude eludes me,

Hope flees at the very sight of my face.

 

What do I do dad?

When I am surrounded by doubt,

Engulfed in anxiety,

 

What does it really mean to be manly?

Do I have big muscles?

Am I a hard iron?

 

Even if life may want to spit me out,

Even if my own mind wants to stop being this character,

I will not give up.

 

You have not given up on me,

My life and my mind have teamed up,

To take me down,

 

But I cannot give up.

You haven’t given up on me,

You gave me a new hope,

You gave me a new future.

 

This poem is inspired by Psalm 22